because this is a public blog.. because alot of ppl are reading..
so i cant type much **** abt how i'm feeling now.

i feeel so much like swearing.
a bunch of selfish ppl. a bunch of ppl who couldnt care less.

i was feeling so damn frantic just now and lost. ty those who were there to search tgt with me. :) if not, i would have just go crazy.. ty alot.. alot.
trying hard to just swallow all these nonsense and calm myself down. but... i cant. it's enough. everytime when i thought things went rly smoothly.. sth will cock up. not the first time alr. but we just have to smile and asif nth is happening. great.

ahhh. screw everything.
thankfully it's wkend alr. what a nice way to end my friday.

~!#$%^&*
i told myself to relax, calm down. small thing only..
but i know it actually matters ALOT.